The Clearing Process, continued...

It's been some time since my last post. So much has happened. I am still going through the clearing process, but,I am experiencing so many changes in my life. I am growing more confident, emotionally stronger, and a new kind of calmness in situations that used to just be more than I thought I could handle.
I am receiving things and circumstances that I have longed for, for years. For instance, I lived over 800 miles from both my daughters and their families. I had dreamed of living close, getting to know my grandchildren, Really know them, and be here for anything ,anytime, they need me. Well now I am! Not only have I just had the opportunity to be there in an emergency, but I have got to spend one on one time with each of the four grandchildren this summer to get close. What a miracle!!!
I have not needed my hormone replacement medicine or my anti-depressants or sleeping pills for over 8 months now. And I am still facing each and every challenge head on. I face my fears with more courage than I ever thought I possessed. I still have my "lost" times, but it only lasts a short time before I am able to find a path to take. I believe a lot of this will take care of itself when I find the right mentor to guide me through these storms. Someone who has been through this. And as of yet, I haven't found "the Teacher".
As far my adventures at trying to make this Internet business work, I have pretty much put it all on hold. I need to learn so much more! I need to find where and what my niche is. I am still searching. So far, the only thing I am sure of is, I will never give up!!! I know I possess the ability inside myself to make millions through working from my computer. I have total Faith in myself to achieve that dream. And I will never give up on myself or my dreams.
That brings me to something else I have been learning and that is patience! My daughter said one day, "Lord, please give me more patience!" I asked her if she knew 'How" you get more patience? She stopped for a minute, then said no. I told her... I believe we get put into situations that test our patience that makes us develop more patience. I believe that every thing that she was going through that was testing her patience was giving her more as she handled each situation. I believe the same of Faith. I believe we are tested in every area of our lives... Love, Faith, Patience, Strength, Loyalty, Character and more. That each time we are tested we develop more of the same.
These have been some of the hardest tests I have ever been through. But I keep my unwavering Faith that God will not put more on me than I can handle. I KNOW he has got me through some very rough tests. Now I am wondering if the blocks and old programming that keeps me from my abundance are from tests I didn't pass like I should have. Is that why they re-play in my mind? And just how do you rid yourself of such a blockage? There is still so much more to learn. As for now, I ask for each "next step" that I need to take to get me closer to my visions. I pray for guidance, and I try my hardest to stay in the moment and be HAPPY. And I watch for signs or intuition to take an inspired action. And Above all I am GRATEFUL, so grateful for all my blessings!!!
So on to more searching for answers. Until Next Post,
"I'm Sorry, Please Forgive Me, I Love You, Thank You